A Special Anniversary

Yesterday, I rejoiced in an anniversary that is very special to me (and I'm posting about it one day late, oh well) - one year ago yesterday, I learned I was going to be a mommy. Even as I sit here today, all of those thoughts and feelings I had that night as I looked at the faint blue plus sign on the EPT stick come rushing back. Really, what a difference a year makes. Almost everything that occurred before August 27, 2007 seems dull and meaningless compared to the events of the past year, more specifically, the past 16 weeks (well, not everything - obviously our wedding and a few other events are major standouts!). I'd always heard it before, but becoming a mother is THE toughest but most rewarding experience a woman can ever have. As I sat in the comfy pink glider in Alexandra's room last night, rocking back and forth with a sleeping little angel in my arms and the late afternoon/early evening sunlight trickling in between the window blinds, it hit me that this is what life is really all about. There have been moments that have greatly tested me over the past several weeks, like Alexandra's colic and her lack of sleep, but I would go through those moments for hours on end just to witness one of her infectious smiles. Over the past couple of weeks, Alexandra's favorite thing to do has been to take a break from nursing to throw her head back, study my face with those big blue eyes, and then give me an adoring dopey grin that tells me she recognizes me as her mom - every time my heart melts.